pyxygirl

So those of you who know me in RL know I get really shy about singing in front of people. Well, I am trying to get over that, so yesterday at work I went and sang karaoke with one of my coworkers! Hooray! I was shaking, but I did it. In front of a bunch of people I didn't know. And I was even sober! lol My coworker was scared too, so I am proud of both of us!! Maybe someday we'll be able to sing by ourselves- she has a great voice! :)

I will be in La Jolla this weekend with a couple a friends- my friend's family has a condo out there and we are going to be staying there from late Thursday night till Sunday. I don't know how much of a chance I will have to get together, but if any of you guys are up for it, give me a ring or drop me a line! Love you guys!!

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! I have no official Valentine this year, just Penelope-cat, lol, but I love you all and hope you have a wonderful day with whomever you choose to be with. If you are like me this year, then I wish you a wonderful day filled with love, and we can be each other's Valentine! ::hugs and kisses to all::

I had a great trip to Kentucky! It was really enlightening to see how our warehouse works and the sheer volume of what they do is incredible. They work their asses off! I also got to see the lovely Siddal and meet her fiance, which was awesome! I hadn't seen her for years and it was great to catch up. We went to a bar that was connected to an art gallery and they had some very cool interactive pieces. My coworkers and I also ended up in Bardstown at the Old Talbot Tavern, which was built in 1779 and is haunted. We made friends with the bartender and he let us see the Jesse James room, where legend has it Jesse James shot the wall (the bullets are still in the wall). The room also has murals reportedly painted by members of King Louis Phillipe's party while he stayed there. They need to be restored so we couldn't really see the murals, but it was still cool. We also went to the Jim Beam Distillery. :) The scary part of the trip was the weather- I spent a good part of Tuesday night/Wednesday morning hiding in the bathroom listening to tornado sirens going off. We were lucky that no tornadoes touched down where we were but other parts of Kentucky and the south were not so lucky. 55 people died altogether in Arkansas,Kentucky and Tennessee, and I think they said on the news that 50 tornadoes touched down that night. It's so very sad, and my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone who was affected. The next day the power went off in the warehouse from the wind and I was afraid it was going to start all over again, but it didn't. It even snowed a tiny bit the day we left. My one disappointment was that I saw more cows than horses. And I didn't get to try Derby Pie. I guess I'll just have to go back!

So, I am getting set for my trip on Sunday! I'll get in late at night. Still not sure exactly how it is all going to work out. I'll be working during the days but should have evenings free. Siddal, can you email me your phone number to my pyxygirl address? That way we can touch base when I am in town. :) I am getting over a cold but still have some annoying chest congestion so any healing energies would be much appreciated. My coworker is going to take care of P-cat while I am away and make sure she gets lots of love, so that is good. :)

How close is Louisville to Shepherdsville? I have to go out there for work from Feb. 3-7th and it would be great to see you, if possible! I don't know how it's all going to work but I just thought I would check with you. :) ::hugs::

I was shocked and saddened to read of the death of Heath Ledger today. He was a brilliant actor. I cannot believe that he was taken from us so soon. My heart goes out to his family.

My current userpic shows the dress referred to in the previous post. It's not the best pic of me, nor can you see the entire dress. lol I will try to post a good pic when I get one- I didn't bring a camera but there were lots of pics taken of me, so surely someone must have a full shot! lol

Ok, this may sound super girly, but here goes: Is it OK to wear a strapless dress without a bra if you're small on top and the dress fits perfectly so there is no chance of "the girls" making an appearance? I've never even worn a strapless dress before becuase I always thought I couldn't pull one off, but I found a lovely one that really works on me, amazingly. Please advise. :)

So a couple of my coworkers won tix to a Stripper 101 class- you know, how to work the pole and dance for your man, etc. It was awesome, and so much fun, except that it came with 1 free drink. Unfortunately, 1 turned to 4 and I got really, really, drunk. Like, drunk enough to throw up all over the table of the restaurant we were eating at. By that point, I knew I was way gone and was trying to drink only water. Didn't help. I think losing over 25 pounds (from 144 to 118ish)over the last 8 or so months completely reduced my tolerance and I didn't realize it. Yeah, point taken. I feel like the world's most incredible idiot. I have never, ever, done that before and don't plan on ever doing that again. It took me almost 2 hours of soaking in a tub to feel relatively normal after I got home. Ugh. I want to go hide in the closest deep, dark hole. From now on, 1 drink. If ever. Blah. But the class was fun. :) I blame no one but myself. Never ever again. At least now I know how much I can drink. Answer- not much.

Get this! Over the weekend I went to a pet store where you can play with the puppies. I fell in love with the cutest little Welsh Corgi puppy in the world. She was so sweet and cuddly. We just bonded. However, I knew that if I came home with a puppy there would be kitty hell to pay (and practically speaking I couldn't afford a puppy anyway), so I told myself no and left. So, today I'm talking to one of my coworkers and he says that he and his partner bought a puppy over the weekend-a corgi- her!!! And I can visit anytime! Hooray! I'm so glad she went to awesome owners- and I get to visit her. :)

An early happy Thanksgiving to you, beloved Flist! I won't be working for the next few days, so I won't be around a computer. Hopefully, my computer will be here soon. Anyway, I am grateful for all of you in my life. Much love and good thoughts coming out to you all!

I move in tomorrow! The only bummer is that they will not be able to turn the gas on until Tuesday. No matter. I will deal with cold showers and microwaving my food until then! Hooray! By tomorrow I will be out of my crappy situation. It's very freeing. I won't have a computer for a little bit but I will still be able to check my email and LJ and such from work. Computer is the next goal. Hooray!!

I applied for an apartment today! Well, technically yesterday. Damn being a night owl! lol

My sister heard from my dad and so far my dad's house was spared. Apparently 2 homes close to him were burned, but his is OK for the moment. They are letting people go back to their homes in certain areas, but I don't know if my dad is one of them and I am waiting to hear from some other friends to make sure that they are OK. They are hoping that they will have more of a chance to fight the fires later today, when the Santa Anas finally die down.

Well, I heard from my dad- he is OK but they told him earlier today that there is an 80% chance that his house will have burned by the end of the day. I am waiting to hear more from him. My aunt is Ok so far. My friends that have had to be evacuated are safe. My cousin is a fireman and is out fighting these fires. Please continue to keep everyone in your thoughts and prayers!

There's a firestorm in the San Diego area where many of my friends and family live and may have to evacuate, if they haven't already. Please keep them in your thoughts. Everyone on my flist in SD and Southern Cali, be safe and I am thinking of you!!!

So M dudn't come home last night until 4:30 ish. I had a feeling he was with a girl and I texted him to see if he was even coming home. That was all I asked, not "are you with a girl?" or anything stupid, just "are you coming home tonight?" I was so hurt because the one thing I asked of him was that he would wait to start dating again until I moved out and he promised me he would respect that. I stayed asleep until he left for work (he slept downstairs) and this was the note he left me:

"I'm sorry, I don't know if this will break my promise to you but I met someone last night. After you texted, I told her the story. I need some space, a change of scenery, Brian and Cory's sux and no more bar. She's offering her ear and a couch for the night. I'm going to take it to rest my mind. Don't wait up tonight."

I hate him so much right now. I thought I was done crying and now I am crying again. I understand that he would date again, but I just hoped that he would have been respectful- after all, I know this situation sucks and I was planning on being out of the house in a couple of months or less. Is that too much to ask? I was already devestated, and now I feel more so. I'm hurt and disappointed. This was the only thing I ever asked of him and he couldn't even give me that.

I would like to to the book meme going around on my flist but I don't know how to bold, italicize, underline or strike through in LJ. ::hides head in shame::

I work for an odd, but fun, company. Today was 80's day as part of Customer Service Appreciation Week. One of my coworkers had a black dress with a silvery mesh overlay that she was cool enough to let me borrow (it got me Tina Turner references because it was sparkly and showed some leg lol), so I wore that with a denim jacket, did my hair in a poofy ponytail sort of thing, went with the eyeliner and red lipstick and revisited the "Holly in the 80's look." Scary, but fun. No pics, alas. Anyway, when I got to work, one of my coworkers had saved me two red velvet cupcakes (my favorite) and I had a bouquet of hand made paper "carnations" on my desk from other coworkers- which I did not expect, though we could give them to anyone- along with a burned copy of the Fiona Apple CD "When the Pawn . . ."- there are some good, angsty songs on there to lose myself in. The only downer is that I am almost on a warning for attendance. Lame, I tell you. Overall, though, I felt very loved. My coworkers rock! Then I got home and saw that M had made little peach raspberry pies (peach pie is my favorite pie), so that was my dinner, which I ate as I watched a DVR'ed "Bones." May not be healthy for me, but damn, sometimes pie is just what you need. He's out playing poker (or whatever, I still think he is already seeing someone else) but I am determined to just be happy with my own company. There will be a new love for me someday, but I have to let go of the old one to be ready for it. This may take a while emotionally, but it will happen. For now, I love my friends, and I know that I am loved.